I've already posted about resolutions, but I think I need a new set. Something a little more thought out. I'm sprinting in a million different directions, and it is hard, and it hurts. Time to pare down. Time to shrink this bubble of uncontrollables that seems to hover over my life, ready to pop and shower me in worries. I don't want to end up crazy. I really don't. It scares me to the point of ...writing a blog about it, I guess.
Here we go:
No more facebook/twitter/chatting. Cutting myself off for a while. Email is fine, phone calls are fine....I'll even be holding back on texting. This does not mean I don't want to hear from anyone. Quite the opposite! I'd love 10 emails a day, or a nice chat on the cellular when you have a minute. I just can't use these things as some weird portal out of whatever I'm doing all the time. Paying closer attention to the moments I find myself in will, hopefully, give me a greater appreciation of what I do have in my life. I'm feeling a little ungrateful lately, wanting things I can't have. That needs to stop before I go completely nuts, since there is nothing about it that I can control. Sad sad sad.
No more drinks when I get off of work, no more drinks at home.
Scrutinize and evaluate the worth of my relationships. I'm not aiming to cut ties, I just need a clear idea of what I mean to the people I devote my time to.
I guess all of those boil down to living in my reality and not over reaching for things out of my grasp. I'll just try to be a good daughter, friend, niece, cousin, etc....and I'll know that making the people I love happy will usually make me happy.
Your favorite aunt jenny loves you Ness...sending hugs.
ReplyDeleteYou need to be devoting all of your time to me. That will make you the most happy. haha. Love you friend! Meow! And lots of hugs! See you Wednesday for dinner. =)And I am sure I will be giving you those long leisurely chats on the cellular, oh wait I already do that.
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